Is This You?
You have done "the work," yet you're ready to get out of your head...
You have read the book, done the programs, completed the therapy... Repaired after rupture, created a coherent narrative, journaled your intentions...
You are a conscious, intentional, deeply loving mother, yet you cannot fully relax into the delicious mystery...the holy unconditional love in your heart...
With your family, you're reaching a "connection ceiling". While you are physically in the moments with them, you find yourself hovering slightly outside the fullness of them. Present, yet performing presence rather than inhabiting it.
Maybe secretly, you're resentful. Because you treat your kids better than you treat yourself.
You are not missing more knowledge, darlin', you're caught in the classic tail spin of I call, the Under-Nurtured Mother.
The highly sensitive, deeply feeling, intuitive & empathetic woman who can pour herself into relationships with anyone other than herself.
Not anymore.
Mothered is for the woman who
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You have done significant personal growth work and you are still waiting to feel the fullness of it in your body
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You are a loving, conscious, intentional mother and you cannot stop being hard on yourself
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You can hold your children's emotional experience beautifully and have almost no access to your own
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You know what self-compassion looks like. You cannot seem to give it to yourself.
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You are waiting to enjoy your children truly, softly, without the undercurrent of self-judgment and it keeps not arriving
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You are proud of how far you have come and quietly ashamed of how you still speak to yourself
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You are ready to stop being the one person in your family you cannot seem to love
The Next Initiation for the Cycle Breaking Mother,
All that work you have been doing for your children? You're being called to the next gate.
The missing piece is never more knowledge. It is self-love: real, HOLY, practiced, transcendent, practical. Turning toward yourself with the same tenderness you have learned to bring to them.
Because the Well-Mothered Woman can..
She Can Feel
True love. True mercy. True spark. She can stay with her pain, her shame, her grief, her fear. All that skill she brings to her children? She can feel the full range without fragmenting. She can feel the love that she is.
She Can Enjoy
Her children and family. She can expand pasted inherited limitations of HOW GOOD family can truly be! She can genuinely delight in her life, even when it a shitty, hard hard season, with unhurried presence. She is inside the moment rather than watching herself from a slight distance.
She Can Believe
That she is fundamentally good, worthy and deserving. Of existing! Of being alive! Of being a mother! Of being in a becoming process! That her presence is a gift. That she deserves the same tenderness she has been giving to everyone else.
How We Work Together
The Four Directions of a Well-Mothered Woman
One continuous homecoming.
Every Sunday at 6pm CDT for three months
North
Exquisite Presence
Your beautiful body, your female nervous system, tiny attunements. Learning to inhabit yourself rather than hover outside your own life, constantly on the offense.
South
Open Heart
Feelings, emotional needs, grief, shame. Learning to feel your own feelings with the tenderness you bring to your children's.
East
A Loving Mind
The archetypes of your psyche. The Inner Loving Mother. Voice work. Learning to love the way your brain keeps you safe from emotional honesty, vulnerability, & maturity
West
Strong Hands
Practical skills, repair, parenting tools. What all of this looks like in the real daily life of a real mother, spouse, and community member.
Twelve Gates, One Powerful Call.
Module 0: The Call
Gate One: Sovereign: Reclaiming your choice, your freedom, your autonomy
Gate Two: Resilient: The esoteric and the neuroscience of early suffering and how to rise by unraveling
Gate Mothered: Connecting to Great Mother in you
Gate Three: Longing & Receiving: Longing as feminine spiritual power
Gate Four: Belonging: Belonging, significance, to deeply matter
Gate Five: Held: Learning to nurture and nourish your vessel
Gate Six: Protected: Sacred rage, lifeforce, self-protection and necessary primal aggression
Gate Seven: Felt: Learning to feel without fragmenting
Gate Eight: Recognized: How to truly see yourself beneath the masks and personas
Gate Nine: Guided: Learning to trust your decision making and your desires
Gate Ten: Heard: Speaking from the feeling. Being genuinely known.
Gate Eleven: Forgiven Receiving the forgiveness you have been withholding from yourself
Gate Twelve: Becoming: Not arrived nor finished. Consciously, devotedly in motion.
Meet your guide, Rebecca Lyddon
I have been where you are, and I am still traveling...
I became a mother at twenty-three and was Motherless in every way that mattered. For years I was doing exactly what you are doing: building an extraordinary external practice of conscious mothering while my inside was quietly starving.
I swallowed and mastered the theory. I did the rupture and repair dance daily. I was doing "the work". And I still could not land inside my own life. A few years ago, at the height of my career, I almost lost everything.
I hate myself.
So profoundly. That I begged God to either FIX ME or take me away.
My soul was exploding and my body was breaking down. I had no more choice but to learn how BE HERE. Truly. Not hide behind science, fixate on my partner shortcomings, become violent toward my son, feel estranged emotionally from my daughter, search for love and belonging anywhere other than my reality...
I built my way back, ya'll. I got OUT of my head and IN to my heart and spirit.
Thirteen years of motherhood. Thousands of hours of study. Hundreds of mothers trusted to me. This program is what I gathered by traveling the gates myself.
Now I am passing on the call.
Come as you are
Questions
What you might be wondering
Who is this actually for?
Mothers who have done significant personal growth work: therapy, parenting education, somatic or spiritual practice and who still cannot fully enjoy their children or receive their own love. This is not for mothers who are just beginning the journey. It is for mothers who have been on it for a while and are ready to turn it inward.
Do I have to follow a strict schedule?
The self-paced content is entirely yours and you can move through it when you can, return when you need to. Our group calls will be help with the right amount of structure and guidance regardless of whether or not you've completed that week's lesson.
What if I can't make the live calls?
The calls happen weekly and you join whichever corresponds to the current week. You are never behind, or too late! All calls are recorded so you will not lose anything by missing one the community will still be there the following week.
Is this therapy?
MOTHERED is not therapy and Rebecca is not a therapist. It is a deeply informed, experientially grounded program and community. Many mothers in MOTHERED also work with therapists as the two complement each other well.
What is the clarity call?
A real conversation so Rebecca can genuinely understand where you are and will tell you honestly whether MOTHERED is the right fit.
You are the love
you have been
looking for.