Become the Mother You Have Always Needed
Mothered
a 90 day Heroine's Journey for the women who are not willing to suffer at the mercy of their under~nurtured inner world any longer. Women who have spent their whole lives longing for love, connection, & a true sense of belonging, but feel like something is missing.
We begin Sunday, June 7, 6pm CDT
When you've mastered the intellectual understanding part, even dabbled in the spiritual, but where you're going needs something special...
You have read the book, done the programs, completed the therapy... Repaired after rupture, created a coherent narrative, journaled your intentions...
You are a conscious, intentional, deeply loving woman, a dedicate mother, yet you cannot fully relax into the delicious mystery...the holy unconditional love in your heart...
With your family, you're reaching a "connection ceiling". While you are physically in the moments with them, you find yourself hovering slightly outside the fullness of them. Present, yet performing presence rather than inhabiting it.
Maybe secretly, you're resentful. Because you treat your kids better than you treat yourself.
You are not missing more knowledge, darlin', you're caught in the classic tailspin of I call, the Under-Nurtured Mother.
This is not a parenting problem. It is not a behavioral problem. It is not something more knowledge or better techniques will fix. It lives much deeper than that — at the level of attachment, of emotional development, of spirit. It is the gap between what you know and what your body, heart, and soul have actually integrated.
And it has nothing to do with how good a mother you are. It has everything to do with what was never given to you.
The highly sensitive, deeply feeling, intuitive & empathetic woman who can pour herself into relationships with anyone other than herself.
Not anymore.
The cosmology behind this work
You get to exist.
Most healing personal growth in parenting field focuses on changing behavior, even if it is parent centric. (I know because I led an international conscious parenting institute for 7 years, coaching thousands of men and women).
& you wanna know what I heard, over and over and over again?
"I'm doing everything right. I understand it all. Now what? I still struggle on the inside."
I bring you to the buried treasure beneath your goals and desires to improve your behaviors and understand why you struggle the way you do.
Mothered will guide you into your underworld: your emotional power, your connection habits (especially the destructive ones!), you spiritual longing, and your foundational sense of existential worth. (yup, no big deal!).
Because a woman can do everything right on the outside and still feel a quiet ache on the inside. Like she is waiting to be fully let in to her own life. Still feel the particular loneliness of someone who gives beautifully, and doesn't know how to receive.
This is where we begin. Not with behavioral modication so you can be a "good girl" or mother, wife, or coach. But so you can BE YOU...without managing, overadapting, disonnecting, silencing, writhing in turmoil, lost in internal battles...
"The doors to the world of the wild self are few but precious. If you have a deep scar, that is a door. If you have an old, old story, that is a door. If you yearn for a deeper life, a full life, a sane life, that is a door."
~Clarissa Pinkola Estés
Your next initiation is calling.
All that work you have been doing for your children? You're being called to the next gate.
The missing piece is never more knowledge. It is self-love: real, HOLY, practiced, transcendent, practical. Turning toward yourself with the same tenderness you have learned to bring to them.
Because the Well-Mothered Woman can..
She Can Feel
True love. True mercy. True spark. She can stay with her pain, her shame, her grief, her fear. All that skill she brings to her children? She can feel the full range without fragmenting. She can feel the love that she is.
She Can Enjoy
Her children and family. She can expand pasted inherited limitations of HOW GOOD family can truly be! She can genuinely delight in her life, even when it a shitty, hard hard season, with unhurried presence. She is inside the moment rather than watching herself from a slight distance.
She Can Believe
That she is fundamentally good, worthy and deserving. Of existing! Of being alive! Of being a mother! Of being in a becoming process! That her presence is a gift. That she deserves the same tenderness she has been giving to everyone else.
You are not broken. You are underdeveloped in specific, identifiable, healable ways.
How We Work Together
The Four Directions of a Well-Mothered Woman
One continuous homecoming
North
Exquisite Presence
Your beautiful body, your female nervous system, tiny attunements. Learning to inhabit yourself rather than hover outside your own life, constantly on the offense.
South
Open Heart
Feelings, emotional needs, grief, shame. Learning to feel your own feelings with the tenderness you bring to your children's.
East
A Loving Mind
The archetypes of your psyche. The Inner Loving Mother. Voice work. Learning to love the way your brain keeps you safe from emotional honesty, vulnerability, & maturity
West
Strong Hands
Practical skills, repair, parenting tools. What all of this looks like in the real daily life of a real mother, spouse, and community member.
Twelve Gates, One Powerful Call.
Module 0: The Call
Gate One: Sovereign: Reclaiming your choice, your freedom, your autonomy
Gate Two: Mothered: Connecting to your Mother Archetypes
Gate Three: Longing & Receiving: Longing as feminine spiritual power
Gate Four: Belonging: Belonging, significance, to deeply matter
Gate Five: Held: Learning to nurture and nourish your vessel
Gate Six: Protected: Sacred rage, lifeforce, self-protection and necessary primal aggression
Gate Seven: Felt: Learning to feel without fragmenting
Gate Eight: Recognized: How to truly see yourself beneath the masks and personas
Gate Nine: Guided: Learning to trust your decision making and your desires
Gate Ten: Heard: Speaking from the feeling. Being genuinely known.
Gate Eleven: Forgiven Receiving the forgiveness you have been withholding from yourself
Gate Twelve: Becoming: Not arrived nor finished. Consciously, devotedly in motion.
Our Mission
Over twelve weeks, we tend to four territories.
Four directions that together make up the whole of a woman's interior life. We are not goal setting to get somewhere but showing up to be exactly where we are.
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Tending Our Animal
The body holds the imprintings, shapes, and behaviors of your emotional, sensory, and psychological past. Here we learn to recognize, inhabit, and listen to the animal. Expand your ability to experience your aliveness and develop a secure bond, plus unbreakable trust with yourself, your decisions, and your nature.
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Anchoring Into Our Heart
Get to practice the raw real art of feeling. We will develop a powerful capacity to feel without being destroyed by feeling. We will practice riding the pain wave and developing emotional freedom.
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Strengthening the Self
Constructing identity from the inside out. Coming to know who you actually are, what you actually value, what you actually need, and learning to honor all of that even imperfectly, even in the beautiful, relentless chaos of motherhood.
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Choosing Practice
Concrete, repeatable, and small. The daily acts of turning toward yourself: tiny attunements, practiced again and again.
This might be the right fit if you...
✦ Are a deeply loving, intentional woman who still feels a quiet ache you can't quite name. Like you're doing everything right and something essential is still just out of reach.
✦ Feel physically present in your life but somehow hovering just outside the fullness of it. Present in body, performing presence rather than truly inhabiting it.
✦ Give love readily and generously, and find receiving it genuinely hard. Compliments deflect. Care makes you uncomfortable. You're not sure you believe you deserve it without earning it first.
✦ Have done significant healing work (therapy, somatics, programs) and still notice something deeper hasn't shifted. You know it intellectually. Your nervous system hasn't gotten the memo.
✦ Sometimes feel like a stranger to your own longings. Like you've spent so long tuning into everyone else's frequency that you've lost the signal of your own.
✦ Carry a quiet, low-grade sense that your existence is more burden than gift, even though you'd never say it out loud and you're not entirely sure where it came from.
✦ Know you are here for something meaningful and long to build a life that nourishes both you and the people you love, not one at the expense of the other.
✦ Are a mother, or a woman who mothers in other ways, who tends, holds, gives, and pours out, and who is ready to turn some of that toward herself.
✦ Are ready to go all the way in. Not to fix anything. To come home to yourself.
A well-mothered woman is soft, sharp, surrendered, joyful, outrageous, feral, grieving, unashamed, forgiven, seen, heard, held, grown, flown, wild, reverent, and so much more.
Meet your guide, Rebecca Lyddon
I have been where you are, and I am still traveling...
This work is incredibly personal to me as I spent most of my life being a deeply feeling woman who had no idea what to do with her feelings, who had been taught, through the way she was mothered, that her interior life was too much, too inconvenient, too messy to be witnessed.
I became a mother at twenty-three and was motherless in every way that mattered. I conceived life with a man I had known for a very short time, thrust, alone and exposed, into the grandest ecstatic initiation of my existence: becoming mother.
For years I was doing exactly what you might be doing right now. Building an extraordinary external practice of conscious living, relating, and mothering, while my inside was quietly starving.
I swallowed and mastered the theory. I did the rupture and repair dance daily. I was doing "the work." And I still could not land inside my own life.
A few years ago, at the height of my career, I almost lost everything. I hated myself. So profoundly that I begged God to either fix me or take me away. My soul was exploding and my body was breaking down. I had no more choice but to learn how to be here. Truly. Not hide behind science, fixate on my partner's shortcomings, become violent toward my son, feel estranged emotionally from my daughter, search for love and belonging anywhere other than my reality.
I built my way back. I got out of my head and into my heart and spirit.
Through the years I have met the lowest lows and the highest highs. I have come eye to eye with the excruciating belief that I was undeserving of my children. I know these thresholds well. I stand before you and declare: you can have this too.
I am a mother of three with thirteen years of motherhood beneath my belt. I have worked with over 3,000 women and mothers. I bring to this container 16 years of somatic practice, under my teacher Laura Martin-Eagle. I served as the Director of Education at the Jai Institute for Parenting for 7 years and created their world-class parent coach certification program, I am trained as a Social Worker with a certification in Early Child Waldorf Education, Hypnocoaching, Expressive Arts Therapy, Storytelling & Parts Work with Pam England, Open Heart with Bela Crowder, and so many more teachers....
This program is what I gathered by traveling the gates myself. Now I am passing on the call.
Come as you are
What to expect
Your becoming doesn't happen while sleepwalking
The beauty & power of your being will thrive with the right guidance. Which is why every gate touchpoint within Mothered has been designed to hold the optimal balance of support and spaciousness, enough structure to keep you moving, enough room for your own wisdom to surface.
All of the details
Mothered is an intimate group container, kept deliberately small so that every woman receives real attention, real witnessing, and real support throughout the 12 weeks.
Live Group Calls: every Sunday at 6pm CDT
Between Session Whatsapp Support
Lifetime access to Mothered's signature curriculum
Community via Skool
12 × 90-minute weekly live group sessions on Zoom
Each call weaves together teaching, practice, group inquiry, and individual attention. Every session is recorded & you are never behind.
Questions
What you might be wondering
Is this a parenting program?
Not exactly. Mothered is an interior program for the woman. Yes, many of the women who come here are mothers, and the material speaks directly to that experience. But the wounds we tend to, emotional, psychological, attachment, and spiritual, belong to the woman, not just the mother. When she is more whole, everything shifts. Not because she is doing anything differently, but because she is inhabiting herself differently.
I have done a lot of therapy and healing work. Will this be different?
Almost certainly. Most containers work on either the being or the doing. Mothered holds both, and specifically addresses the gap between what you know intellectually and what your nervous system, body, and spirit have actually integrated. The knowing is not the problem. The felt experience is. If you have done significant inner work, you will not be starting over. You will be going deeper.
My life looks pretty good from the outside. Is this still for me?
Yes, and this is precisely who Mothered is designed for. The women who find their way here are not in crisis. They are conscious, loving, already-doing-the-work women who sense there is a level of presence, belonging, and aliveness that is still just out of reach. Not in what they are doing. In how they are inhabiting themselves.
What if I miss a session?
Every session is recorded and available to you. You are never behind. Life is gloriously unpredictable and this container was designed with that reality in mind.
Do you have an extended payment plan?
By special request, yes. Please reach out directly and we will find something that works. What matters most is that this commitment does not put you in a challenging financial situation. Please use your own internal guidance to determine whether you can sustain it with confidence.
You are the love
you have been
looking for.
This is not about becoming someone else. It is about becoming more fully yourself...the self that was always there beneath the armor, beneath the performance, beneath the adaptations you made to survive. Imagine a dove has just landed before you. You look down and see water, never realizing you were at sea at all. There is a scroll tied to the dove's wing. It has your name on it.